Ever since January 19, 2010, I have been feeling kind of depressed. Well, depressed probably wouldn't be the best word to describe my predicament, but rather, emotionally unwell. I pretty much only feel this way at night, such as about 8:00 PM or 9:00 PM and later. I used to feel this way a long time ago (off and on), because I had a bad concious, but I haven't done anything wrong recently, so I don't know why I feel this way. I guess it is not just one thing, but rather a number of things. Well getting suspended from school for all year, my cousin dieing at the age of 21 in a horrific car accident four months ago, me falling in love with my best friend (but she rejected me, about three or four months ago), never being able to see my best friend (same person as previously mentioned), never being able to see any of my friends (save for a few at Re-Entry), having to see a counselor, the fact that I don't want to be alone anymore (single), having to see another counselor at school once a week, always fighting with my parents, the fact that I haven't made plans for a date for quite some time (since my best friend and then lover left me), being grounded quite a bit lately, and the fact that I have a crush on one of the girls in Re-Entry. That last thing isn't a bad thing, but I'd like to take this slow and am kind of worried that if she doesn't feel the same way about me, then it will ruin our friendship. I would also like to get to know the girl I have a crush on a lot better first too.